it sucks! i wonder why cant i ever get things right. is it so difficult wahidah ? i open my big mouth, shoot whatever i want to say without pausing a minute and sparing a thought for the other party. i know whatever damn thing i said is never harmless but how can i change the fact the other person is already hurt ? this wasnt the first time alright. and i'm sick of it. though i never meant a single word i said, will feeling remourseful change everything ? fucking hell no right. and i'm really fucking sick of this, when will i ever change ?


i'm back. i've not been giving a damn to blog after my monitor broke down weeks ago. darl left like two weeks ago and only gave me one, one phone call and beckett is in brunei and will be back tmr.yipee(: i miss them alot.christmas is around the corner. and so is the day sch will be opening. hmmm and my hmwrk is left undone, majority. i have 6 malay book reviews to do and i've yet to read a book. what's shitty is that we've got to do a 100,not 50 but 100 words of reflection and to find 10 words you dont understand and search for its meaning,six books make it 60 words. thats easy cause most of the words are so chim that i'm left clueless half the time. ah god help me, oh ok clearly not even god can help me.

some pictures on 081207, went out with the twins and beckett.
gek and kim, thanks for the day.



oh beckett thank god you'll be back tmr,i miss you.









spot me, i'm between the headless male models taking this goon's photo.



this two pictures are randoms just browsing and it reminded me of the airport trip with ms beckett.we were trying to find your william beckett but ended up having fun cause hell yes we dont know where they were.



goodnight.

Tuesday, December 04, 2007 @ 11:07 PM

finally made my ic. for real, FINALLY! had dinner at fork&spoon. my younger sister has been pestering me to bring her to the movies, and yes i'll be bringing her out tomorrow to watch enchanted. and meet up with darl to spend time with her before the 7.after all its a sad thing i get to go out and she stays at home unless its mum and dad's off day. i bought an auto car mag and the contents are freaking cool. esp the future designs of AUDI.and i still DO want to learn how to master tennis. mum's busy helping dad out so she barely have time. i still have got a lot to learn. its one of this day i'm guessing.the days are passing by real fast. real fast and that suck. maybe its just me but soon in a blink of an eye the school is going to re-open and i dont like that. so i'm going to enjoy every single day out of this hols. goodnight.

Monday, December 03, 2007 @ 3:19 PM

seriously i'm not up to anything lately and it bores me. ok this took me by surprised, i got a bursary. with my results as such, i did not expect any this year. so rushed to submit my entry today as it was the last day, as you see i've not been opening the letter box for like 2 weeks. watched good luck chuck. was laughing my ass off half the time! its seriously hilarious. in brief, anyone who f chuck will find their true love. how true can it ever get ? fatheen set up an online shopping blog and i'll be supporting you dear.

FATHEEN'S shop blog♥

Saturday, December 01, 2007 @ 1:21 AM

morning people. i've only listened to bowling for soup but not check out their video and when i check when we die out, i fucking cried alright. its seriously touching, a dad and the son. so my dentist is a real friendly chic. in short, she says she might have to extract some of my tooth. it pays a price to have a nice and pretty set of teeth. i'll be going for an xray next week. i'm feeling kind of down now and its hard to explain and i guess its after i viewed the video.



Well, I know that it's early
And it's too hard to think.
And the broken empty bottles
Are reminder in the sink.
But I thought that I should tell you
If it's not to late to say.
I can put back all the pieces
They just might not fit the same.

Cause nothing's worth losing
Especially the chance to make it right.

And I know that we're gonna be fine.
And the tattooed mistakes
Are gonna fade over time.
As long as we live, time passes by.
And we won't get it back when we die.

Well I know it's been years now
And I don't look the same.
And the hopes and dreams you had for me
You thought went down the drain.
And the room feels so empty
where my pictures used to be.
And I can't say that I blame you,
But you can't blame me.

Cause nothing's worth losing
Especially the chance to make it right.

And I know that we're gonna be fine.
And the tattooed mistakes
Are gonna fade over time.
As long as we live, time passes by.
And we won't get it back when we die.

Come over.
Come over.

Cause I gotta know,
If I am doing this all on my own.

Come over.
Come over.

How can I show you if you're not here?

And I know that we're gonna be fine.
And the tattooed mistakes
Are gonna fade over time.
As long as we live, time passes by.
And we won't get it back when we die.

And I know that we're gonna be fine.
(and I know that we're gonna be fine)
And the tattooed mistakes
Are gonna fade over time.
As long as we live, time passes by.
And we won't get it back when we die.

Come over.
Come over.

Come over.
Come over.
Come over.
Come over.
(I gotta know)
And we won't get it back when we die.
(well, I know that it's early...)